I am an all-or-nothing kind of gal. If I decide to go on a health kick, I force myself into an integrated commitment to overall wellness in all aspects of my physical well-being. When I commit to cleaning my bedroom, I (and my husband) know that I am planning on emptying drawers, sorting each piece of clothing, organizing the closet and allowing any OCD tendencies to take charge and work until the room resembles a magazine picture.
These high expectations cause me stress and I either sacrifice my comfort (or the comfort of my family) to achieve these goals or I avoid committing to them at all. In my mind, if I haven’t committed to it…I can’t fail.
Life is not a line-for-line budget with items listed, broken-down and categorized, waiting for me to either address them or write them off as a bad investment. Nothing worth anything has ever been that clear of a decision and I don’t know why my brilliant mind hasn’t accepted that fact before now. But, life can be organized and I prefer to use lists.
I use lists to remind myself on a (more than) daily basis that I need to address what is waiting to be addressed. For facing it gives it the attention it needs and relieves me of the pressure that having so many undone items gives me. I deserve light shoulders, free from burdens at the end of the day. I deserve to rest my head on my pillow, knowing I’ve met my daily worries and pressures and they are addressed and dealt with. If I’m unable to do that, these items go on a list that I will address tomorrow. For in that day, I will remind myself that I need to address what is waiting to be addressed.
Many of my daily issues are not an easy decision. I have learned to prioritize importance and delegate…and accept the result of my decisions. If I feel that I have made a mistake, I know that I made the best decision with the information I had at that moment.
No procrastinating, I’ve got no time to waste on that. No excuses, my energy is too valuable to waste. No more, my limit is reached and I’m ready to tap into my commitment-personality and commit to a better use of me. I will continue to list and learn. It’s a fun way to organize, prioritize, and delegate… and it’s a good use of sticky-notes.
What is it you’ve been putting off, excusing, or avoiding? Is it worth your energy and time to address it now and open up some time and energy in your future?